Blarg.. Maybe Meh.

I have been so damn exhausted these last few days, I find myself working and than trying to stay off the computer as much as possible. I am so exhausted from work, and can't wait for an actual day off. So here was my weekend. Sort of boring today, as I think work is just exhausted the fuck out of me... Hard to be to exciting when all you want to do is sleep for 2 days!

Friday I had acupuncture. Which was awesome. She was doing Moxa on my stomach/pelvic area, and she got to talking about her relationships problems with the new man in her life, and I think she got a little carried away. A piece of the Moxa stick ended up dropping from the stick, and laid burning on my stomach for a good few seconds. In all honesty it really didn't bother me much, I think she was mortified. When I went to leave, she said that she wont take my money, and would just rip up the check. It really didn't bother me much, and the 3rd degree burn while most people it would piss them off, I felt way worse pains in my life and was feeling so much better after this acupuncture treatment.

Worked out 6 days last week! WOOT! Go me. I have to say it's been two weeks since I started kick my own ass campaign, and I have to say I am slowly noticing a difference. Holding steady at 135-138, which doesn't make me exactly thrilled, but as long as I am not over 140 mark, I am going to deal with it. I mean hell I have bigger boobs now, so some weight gain is expected I am sure.. I am trying my best to work with it. I had to take my chemo meds last night, and I think that screw with my system to some extent. I mean after all, in larger doses it is chemo meds.... Granted it works for suppressing my immune system, but lets be realistic about what they are... I am slowly starting to get in better shape, and I feel less bloated. I am going to keep going on the path on I am, and as soon as the busy season is over, I will be back to hiking, riding and running in addition to gym/Jillian/yoga/pilates workouts!!!

A Knee Jerk Reaction

Stress is basically a disconnection from the earth, a forgetting of the breath. Stress is an ignorant state. It believes that everything is an emergency. Nothing is that important. Just lie down.”

Had Acupuncture yesterday, and boy was is fucking awesome. For the first time ever, I fell asleep and just relaxed. It was awesome. I asked her to make sure to work on my bladder trigger points, as it is the busy season and my body typically triggers its Auto-Immune diseases during this time. However I am hopeful with these new meds and new look on life with holistic treatments, that this will change. Anywho, so she went to put a needle in my foot area and I leg totally shot up in the air to a reaction the point. I asked her what the point was, and she said bladder. I laughed my ass off. Acupuncture has been pretty amazing for me and relaxing. I wish I could get it more than once a month, but that's all I can afford. Ideally I would rock every 3 weeks, but for now I can't.

Life is busy and hectic but for the most part good. I am trying to think about the positive things in life, and what I do have. I am trying to think about how this January is the first January in like over 7 years, I am not healing from or waiting for a surgery. Normally in January my body is triggered by stress, as this is my primary stress time for work and when it begins. I am optimistic that I am control of my body, and that hopefully her and I can work together to make it through to the Spring. I think right now the hardest part for me, is if what I am feeling is because of my AI triggers, or if this is the way people feel when they work 11+ hours days. It seem slike such a simple concept to most people who don't fight AI diseases, but it gets hard sometimes to distinguish between what is AI and what is the feeling the a "normal" person would feel under the hours I am working. Wish I had caffeine though, these hours are tough without a stimulant to keep you awake. It's hard sometime, like this morning after working 55+ hours, and than coming into the office after 5am. Coffee sure would be nice now!!!!

Acupuncture

Smoke-Free 17 days

Been crazy busy last few days... in a good way. (Typing on phone so excuse the grammer)

Acupuncture for the first time ever on Thursday. It was an amazing and weird experience for me. It realized a flood of emotions and created me feeling completely overwhelmed with emotions... to the point i literially wanted to cry every sec of the afternnoon. Im thinking instead of toxins being released into my body like most people, for me it was a flood of emotions. Releasing all these feelings for me ive been dealing with... im eager to try the standard 3 weeks fore once a week and see how i react to it. One thing i noted was that i felt less swollen than i did going into the appt.... i am curious to see where this could leade....

Ugh long and fun day yesterday... had an amazing time & felt so good to laugh and smile all day...but im exhausted... Ill try and blog more later. For now, going to watch Redskins game.

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