American Gluttony at it's finest

I enjoyed myself yesterday as it was my first day off in weeks. I slept in till 8 (when you wake up at 5am every day, this is sleeping in), woke up and had some decaf coffee. Than woke up hubbie around 10:00ish and said "Let's go to breakfast!!" So we went to the locals breakfast location and let me tell you, it was gluttony at it's finest. I ordered a small, which turned out to be 4 eggs (a large was 6 eggs!!!) omelet with tomatoes, olives and onions with cottage cheese on the side and let me tell you, I was the skinny bitch who ordered healthy food. I made sure to tell the waitress I couldn't eat the Delicious white toast or hashbrowns not by choice. Not really the sort of place you want to order "skinny food". The restaurant was full of obese eaters (I would say everyone was 100/200+ what they should be weighing) and man I could just hear Jillian Michaels screaming in there. A table with 6 rather obese individuals was FULL of plates from the meals that they ordered. When one group left, another group of large people entered and soon filled the table. My husband's chicken fried steak and toast with hashbrowns took up not 2 plates but 3!!! I was seriously mildly disgusted. While I understand that the food is amazing, it's disgusting to watch eaters enjoy their prime rib omelet with a side of ham and A DIET COKE!!! I laughed my ass off when I heard that. I am sorry but REALLY?!?! Complete with the hungover college guys next to us, who were obviously there for top hangover cure greasy foods and were talking  who they banged and the girls they met... Obviously first time visitors as they were all pretty attractive guys. All the other tables conversations were full of discussions of food. One guy wanted to be healthy and order the fish omelet, who than got heckled by his friends for his healthy choice, and ended up ordering the prime rib, ham and sausage omelet. Wow good friends. When they read the skinny breakfast which was simply 2 eggs, 2 slices of bacon and wheat toast, they mocked the "skinny people who would order such things" GASP REALLY?!?  Due to all my eye surgeries, my hearing is freakish strong, and while at a bar or a restaurant, I can tune my ears into pretty much any conversation and hear what they are talking about. Sometime handy like when I caught my "best friend" talking shit about me (now ex), sometimes unhandy when you can hear people's conversations you wish you couldn't.

Our dining experience was complete with us paying our tab, and while were were paying out tab, I noticed all the sugar free choices. Off considering they didn't have a single turkey item on the menu. I asked the teenager who was working the table, and he said "Well it's for our eaters with Diabetes as we have a lot!" Well DUH!!! Let me point out my husband felt totally exhausted and lazy all day, and we both took naps mid afternoon. Mine was because of my chemo meds, his because of his GIANT breakfast he had eaten. LOL

Unhealthy me needs to be fired.

"I am ill at these numbers” -William Shakespeare

Today is Friday, which means I will weigh myself at the gym. I felt inclined to point out that while I am still a size 4, I use to weigh 180+ and also rocked a size 14, with probably a 16 being needed, but I refused to rock that size.,. I am not some twig who is obsessed with weight, and trying to maintain my figure, I am someone who not only use to be fat, but so incredibly unhealthy, I think back to those days and it makes me shudder. The pasta dishes I would eat with the loaded cheese on top of cheese. I would eat out regularly and I also would be in and out of the doctor's office weekly. I was soooooooooooooooooo unhealthy and my body was hurting in more ways than one. I had 3 surgeries within a 4 month window, and couldn't recover from the first surgery. Weight for me isn't just a vain thing, it's a life or death thing for my auto-immune diseases. And so, I post some photos of the belly bloat I am feeling and also what I am talking about. Yes I am a size 4, but my belly feels like a size 14 all over again!!!! You can see (and I can see) how extremely bloated my tummy is, and quite frankly it hurts. Its part of my chronic pelvic pain I am fighting, and something I am hoping to get back to healthy!!!!

In an effort to maybe help some other allergy sufferers out there and people who have restricted diets, I am going to start posting some of my yummy & delicious alternatives for foods. For lunch yesterday I had a yummy Turkey sandwich with 2 slices of Jack cheese, lettuce, mayo and mustard. I use Udi's GF bagels which are amazing. Pop them in the microwave for 40% power for 1.15mins and BAM you got yourself some yummy snadiwch material straight out of the freezer! I also included some Safeway Mini Crispy Rice Snacks (kettle corn flavor) as I can't eat potatoes, which means I can't eat chips! All and all, a yummy GF and potato free lunch!!!

I have Pilate's today and I will be weighing myself at the gym. I am HOPING I have maintained my weight at 138ish, and I am praying I have not gained any weight. I have busted my ass this week at not only work but at the gym and eaten only foods that my body can handle... So here is hoping!!!

My eyes started to bug me yesterday which is scary. See when my body attacks me, it attacks my corneas and builds scar tissue on them. The reason I am taking chemo meds on a weekly basis. It suppresses my immune system. Basically thinking that my eyes are a foreign matter, and wrecks my eyes. It feels like someone rubbed sandpaper all over them, and I have had 3 surgeries to remove the scar tissue. Let me tell you it's about as painful as it sounds, and even more painful when you wake up in the middle of the surgery, while they are cutting the tissue. *shudder* So I made sure to ice my eyes last night, put in my steroid drops and get some sleep. I KNOW it's from the stress and hours I have been working, so I just need to maintain it to and keep a watch on it. But still, it's a scary scary premise to something and a path I don't want to go down!!!!

Foods

Found this interesting article on food and being careful what you put into your body. Also some good advice from author Michael Pollen towards the end.
There is No Right or Wrong Food - Only Consequences

I don't really have time to write much today, going on a 66 hour work week, and I am going to be here probably for another 3+ hours, so the longer I type here, the longer I am at the office ;-) So we shall sum it up in a business summary.

Smoked today. Fail. I know. But tomorrow is another day.
Went to the gym and had a KILLER work out, and my abs are hurting from pilates. Totally going to make sure to add that to my workout every week. Got on scale, gained 2lbs. Awesome. Told my hubbie, he looked dumb founded. Ya I know, I don't look like it, but I have. Not happy. Not going to happen and needs to go away. HOW IDK!!! Fuck I eat air. Not going to let it get to me, as I am going to hit the gym hard and start working out 2+ times a day again here soon.

Body feels pretty good. Exhausted but expected. Bleeding has stopped for the month. Win. Love you IUD. My stomach doesn't feel very good, but honestly think I am just exhausted and I ate some Chinese foods.. Ymmmmmmmm sodium. LOL Bladder is mildly inflamed, but getting better.

Gotta run.