My body is fucking with me...

Between FLU, ALLERGIES, COUGH COLD, HORMONES and well isn't that enough?!?! my body is totaling fucking with me.... I have had a rough 2 weeks of dealing with these various symptoms and I am sick of it!!! It's TOOOO MUCH!!! I am wondering if my naseua is from my hormones and the IUD. I was feeling pretty skinny this week (from the stomach flu LOL) and than I woke up this morning feeling completed bloated and fat.. Well hello there hormones. I didn't gain weight while I was sleeping! LOL I have taken the last 2 weeks off (not by choice) because I haven't been feeling up to par. This weak with the stomach nausea and the allergies/cough cold, I didn't feel much like doing anything.... But I am sick of it! Today I am headed back to Miss P's yoga/pilates class and I am super excited.. Than off to golf a round. I will always be nice to my body, and known when it needs a break, but welp body, you have had a long enough break!!! Time to nut up or shut up. I also think I will weigh myself at the gym today, to see if I am riding neutral or lost weight from the stomach flu. Not much of an appetite.. Whatever the case, I feel completely bloated (which for me is hormones) and I thinking my body is just adjusting to another change with the IUD. We shall see!

Feeling of barfing PLEASE go away..

So yes, yes yes I will admit, I went out Saturday night for my close friend's birthday and drank tequila which THERE IS A REASON why I don't drink tequila ;-) I figured my Sunday morning sickness feeling was not only a hangover, but also from the binging of food (AGAIN DAMMIT.. get back this) and opted that the way I was feeling is totally normal, and had nothing to do with my body. I went to mother's day brunch and nutted up, and had breakfast with my mom. Thankfully hubbie was exhausted and wanted to leave, so it gave me a way out. In my head however I totally wanted to do SO MUCH more with my Sunday. So I came home and slept off what I thought was a hangover. Awoke around 4ish, and do a few things around the house. Took my chemo meds around 5:00ish on an empty stomach since Hubbie was getting dinner, and BAM holy nauseated and sick to my stomach. I thought I could wait for hubbie to come back, but I couldnt and I quickly opened a Jello container, hoping to get not only some sugar into my body, but also some contents for my chemo meds. I google methrotraxte on an empty stomach, and supposedly its totally ok. Wasn't for me. I ate some pizza ( I know I know, TOTALLY should not have) and than I landed flat on my back for the duration of the night. Couldn't sleep, couldn't do anything but lay there. FML. Awesome. Passed it off as my horrible binging on Saturday night, and hoped I would awake this morning to a feeling better body.

Nope nice try lady. I feel completely nauseated and holy hot flashes. To top it off, I am still fucking nauseated and feeling sick to my stomach. Again, I passed it off as my chemo meds, and I forced myself to work out and eat lunch. Yep no more forcing, I don't feel good!!! My body hurts, I am having serious hot flashes and I feel like I am going to pass out at any minute. I had plans tonight which I canceled because I dont think I can even make it through work. I just want to go home, pop a painkiller and lay on the couch. Maybe eat some soup later. I am sooooooooooooooooooooo icky feeling on the inside and feel like I have the stomach flu again. Awesome. Just Awesome. Note to self. Seriously, maybe get help for binging on food. It isn't good for me, and recks hell on me for days after. How oh how to control that impulse when I drink. Seriously debating either going to a shrink for help on this, or reading some sort of book. I asked my hubbie for help, and you said you are stubborn, you wont listen to me when drunk~~~ Good point. Damn. Now back to work so I can go home.

3 Leg Wheel!

I have been practicing yoga on and off for 4 years, and I would say the last 6 months more intensely. Ever since I found bad ass Miss P's class! So today I was practicing next to this lady who was beautiful and amazing in her poses. I think my energy was feeding off of her, because not only did I got from tri-pod into head stands 4 times, Miss P called for an inversion, like a wheel. I was totally feeling the energy, and went into a wheel. I felt it, and I lifted my right leg!!!! I haven't been able to find the strength nor energy to do this, and I did! It felt amazing. I made sure after class to chat with Miss P, and tell her that I did it! She said it looked so natural see assumed that I had always been in 3-legged yoga!!! The lovely lady next to me seemed to know Miss P, so I made sure to tell her I enjoyed practicing next to her. She seemed floored by the compliment, but her flows were amazing! GOOD YOGA DAY :-)

Recovering very well from my flu today, in fact little weakness, but all and all feeling good. Bleeding has gone down to minimal. My eplvic pain is almost none existence and it seems that I had bad timing between the flu & a random 6 month adjustment of my body to the IUD!

If I dont barf.. it will be a miracle.

Last night I was watching Top Chef with my hubbie, after eating a yummy dinner of a taco salad (he eats double deckers) and I started to feel pretty nauseated and massive stomach cramps. Figured it was because I had seconds (god forbid). Side note, NO CHEESE! WOOT! Anyways, so I went to the bathroom with food poisoning type symptoms, and figured it was just because I eat to much. After I drug myself off the toilet, I start to wondered WTF was going on since my bathroom trip didn't alleviate the pelvic pains.. Weird. Wrote it off as exhaustion from work. Ended up falling asleep on hubbie. Woke up a hour or so later, and still feeling nauseated and my stomach was killing me. Ok seriously WTF IS GOING ON?!? Woke up this morning, and feel completely worse. I think I totally have the stomach flu. Awesome. I am not barfing (thanks to my strong stomach.. or not thanks still up for debate) but feel completely nauseated and sick to my stomach. I am soooooooooooooooooooo dizzy but I cannot afford the day off of work with every day mattering as we get closer to the deadline. Top it off, my boss is being total hard-ass and snapping at me over the stupidest shit. So I shut my door, turned up the rap and I want to be left the fuck alone!!! Working 11+ hours is hard enough, let alone with the stomach flu!

Flu :(

Friday night I was feeling pretty blah, but yet I stil managed to hut the gym. My chest sort of felt like it was on fire, as I could not run. But I just figured it wasn't something awful. Well I woke up Saturday morning with a 101 fever and awful burning in my chest. Thankfully I popped some Mucinex DM Friday night, to get a jump on my chest congestion, and thankfully it helped. I spent all weekend flat out on the couch and sleeping. My fever seemed to stay around 101. Last night, it went down to 99, but this morning as I try to disinfect the house for my poor hubbie, it spiked back up. Sucks, I worked so hard last week to get some things done at the office, and than today I couldn't get them finalized because I have a damn fever!!!! Argggggggggggggh so annoying. But I guess that's how colds go. I cant get a flu shot, because it sends m body into a tail spin. People with Auto-Immune problems shouldn't get them. Most people don't know this, but flu shots are awful for our bodies.

My pelvic area has been pretty up and down, but I think this is expected with my flu I have since it seems that my body holds a lot of its stress in my digestion/pelvic area. I have had some mild cramping & pain, but again I think this is related to my flu. Not to worried about it.

Headed to the library today. I hope! Ah shit, I hope they aren't closed today for MLK day. Guess I should call them. I want to start a 3-day detox diet every 2 weeks, but I want some more guidance in this area. I have a friend on facebook who ever Monday goes through his personal trainers detox, and I think for my body it would be a great idea. Help to reduce bloating and generally my body's sense of well being.

Well this exhausted me, so I think its time for a nap.